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R.I.Pending - One person's lack of compassion does not equal another's comfort.
One person's lack of comprehension does not equal another's consent.
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R.I.Pending
Sampson, my beloved cat of nearly 20 years is in very poor health. At this moment I am sadly preparing to take him to the vet for what I expect will be his last visit, where I will most likely have him put down so that he will die with some dignity and comfort.

Granted I think that like most of us he would prefer to die at home, and there it would be safer to perform the Klingon Death Ritual, but I'm fresh out of lethal injections and my license to perform them has lapsed.

The icon I am using today was taken of him in the last few months. Last night I took a few more but he is not even that cheerful.
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the_mendicant From: the_mendicant Date: October 4th, 2004 05:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aw, hugs - losing a pet is bad anytime, and having to be the responsible one who decides when enough is enough, can be heart rending nontheless.

I feel your pain xxx
vvalkyri From: vvalkyri Date: October 4th, 2004 06:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
:hugs:
sharrainchains From: sharrainchains Date: October 4th, 2004 06:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
I am so sorry. It is a difficult decision (I know) - but the kindest one for an animal you love. ::hug::
tikva From: tikva Date: October 4th, 2004 06:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh poor kitty! :( I'm so sorry!
lonebear From: lonebear Date: October 4th, 2004 07:07 pm (UTC) (Link)

sorry to hear

i wish i could have met him at the fries party.
cherry_divine From: cherry_divine Date: October 5th, 2004 05:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
He has lived a long life. Sam we will miss your rants and raves in the middle of the night. Your sweet littel face and side turned head when you are looking for food. I know Tara will miss you, no one to chase her through the house when he was horny. The wise alien cat will live on through our memories... Meow kitty Meow...
bittercat From: bittercat Date: October 7th, 2004 01:20 pm (UTC) (Link)

RIP

Rest well, Old Man Sam. You were a wonderful old boy, and your person-daddy will miss you, as will Tara, I'm sure. :(

*HUGS*, Dave. Treat Tara well. She'll definitely be aware of the loss, and she'll need some extra lovin'. :(
fixx From: fixx Date: October 7th, 2004 09:33 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: RIP

I think Tara was getting stressed by Sam's condition. She'd try to play with him and he would not react. Lately she'd been skittish and that continued until today.

Today Tara is much more affectionate - much more *herself* and I'm starting to cheer up when I see that she's loosening up this way, it reinforces my view that I did the right thing. Even if I had chosen to nurse same along into a more decrepit state it would have taken its toll on Tara.

So you know I was getting morosely depressed about having put Sam down, feeling maybe I'd done it selfishly, out of exhaustion from having to clean up after him. After I got home I looked at the photos I took of him the night before I took him to the vet and the photos showed a cat much more "gone" than my mind was willing to remember. Even the Vet's scale reading of 6 pounds seems unreal to me. Not that I feel I kept him alive too long either, any sooner and maybe I really would feel guilty.

ladi_lavinder prepared me for the likely veterinary procedure and how I might intervene to be more emotionally supportive to Sam. Her tips were very useful, although I made one interesting modification. Rather than stopping to pick up and hold him while he died, I opted to bring a large shallow rubbermaid shoebox large enough for him, lined it with a litter tray liner and an old towel, similar to how I would bring him in the carrier and put him in that in the carrier on the way up, so that he would feel at home there while being put down. Certainly it was kinder to him than the cold stainless steel exam table.

I gently held Sam's arm where the catheter was inserted and the drugs injected. It stresses me now to think I did that, but I knew sam would be calmer if I did this instead of a stranger. Sam died calmly while I held him. I have no regrets about this and I'm very happy that ladi_lavinder was there to calm me afterwards. This is not the sort of thing anyone should go through alone.

Also I should mention that I was very pleased with the "bedside manner" of the Vet and his assistant at the "Quince Orchard Veterinary Hospital". All the feels related to the euthenasia procedure came to about $100, just in case you ever need to know that.
bittercat From: bittercat Date: October 8th, 2004 12:19 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: RIP

I'm choking up reading this. I always do. I absolutely think you did the right thing. To keep him alive any longer might have meant he would suffer, if he was not already. It was also good that you were there for the procedure, hard as it was. I have not had to do it yet, and I dread the day I do have to. It hurts so bad. *hugs*

When G's ex-housemate, V's, dog was put down, all 3 of the men living there-G, V, and DRP (my friend who killed himself a few months ago) went, and I think all 3 of them were there when she was put down. I thought that was a very sweet gesture--that the other 2 guys went with V. I'm glad ladilavender was there for you, too. That's very kind.

*big hugs* You and Tara will be fine, and she will probably draw closer to you. She's a great kitty. :)

See you soon!
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